There was a horrible accident on I 70 Eastbound this past week where a semi truck driver lost control and plowed into 28 cars/trucks, killing 4 people (may they rest in peace). I take 70 part of the way home every day and it got me thinking how you really never know when your time on this planet is up.
I’ve been close to death at least twice, but the one time I distinctly remember was falling off a cliff in Bear Valley. I went out for one last run by myself after my friend decided to head to the bar. I thought I knew where I was going. Laughable. I ended up on top of cliff and I couldn’t side step my way out of the situation. With every attempted step up, the snow started slipping. Funny things run through your head when you think it might be the end. I remember thinking how mad my mom was going to be and how Erica would probably never go skiing again. Then I closed my eyes and said something like I hope I live, but it’s really not in my hands anymore and fell off the cliff.
I’m clearly still here. I messed up my shoulder pretty good and my tailbone. I’m lucky and I know that. No more cliff attempts for me. Ever. But I learned something that day. You really don’t know when life as you know it is going to end and that is a gift. Why? Because I now live my life like I could be gone tomorrow. It’s true. I have a list of things I want to do, but I am crossing things off that list and at a high rate of speed I might add.
Every person has to decide what they want out of life. It’s different for everyone. Some people want to have a family, some people want to work all the time, some people want to live the van life. Whatever it is for you, AWESOME, but you really should spend time figuring out what you want to do with the little time you have.
For me it’s traveling. It’s seeing the world, experiencing new things, being a part of a different culture, meeting new people. The world is so beautiful. It never ceases to amaze me. I’ve been a lot of places, but I still have a lot of places left to see.
I don’t live to work. Don’t get me wrong, I like my job, but it’s a means to an end. I want to do an amazing job, but I also know I don’t want “Kari was a fantastic admin” written on any tombstone (not that I’m being buried, but you get it). I want to leave a different mark on this world. I want to bring the people around me joy and happiness because it brings me joy and happiness. When I leave this plane of existence, I want people to remember how I made them feel (hopefully good).
I spend time with my friends, my family, and I travel to a new country every year because why wait? Lots of people say, oh, I’ll do that when I retire. Why??? You’re going to be older then! I want to go hiking and do all these things that require strength and stamina. There are no guarantees that I’ll still be able to do that when I’m 65. And besides, I could die tomorrow. Today is better than tomorrow. Hesitation leads to devastation.
Life is short. You don’t know when you’re going to take your last breathe. For me this means experiencing life and all of its good and bad now. Not tomorrow. Not when I get a break from work. Not when I retire. Now. I’m planning a trip to Africa and New Zealand in the next year and I could not be more excited. New Zealand looks amazing and I’ll get to hike, bike, kayak, and whatever the heck else my heart desires.
It’s like that quote from When Harry Met Sally, “When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible”. Only for me, it’s not a person, it’s life. I want to experience everything life has to offer. I want to see it all. I want to take it all in. I know that these experiences change me. They make me a better human being and I’m so grateful for that.
I hope that you grab life by the horns (so to speak) and get as much as you can out of it every day. Find your joy. Find your happiness and live beautifully.